The first time my computer couldn’t be connected to the Internet, I remembered that Sally had told me the connection software was going to update. By this single, vague memory without any evidence, which I heard from my roommate, I made a judgment that it was because my software needed to be updated.
(In fact, i cannot blame myself so much at least on my reasoning ability, in that i learned later on that without any experience, i cannot possibly imagine a problem and figure it out all by myself. I can ask others, and that is not a sign of dependent mind, it is just that when i do not have sufficient experience, i can relate to others'. There is nothing wrong about asking others for help. And in the meantime, i need to look out for more information that i might need in the future. Just like a skillful mother can't make a meal out of nothing, no reasoning is possible without former experience, which serves as the object, or material. The reasoning in fact, combine these together and give them sense. Only then am i able to use it to solve a new problem on my own. )
In this case, it was really because i have little experience, in fact, the only thing i could relate to is the previous words of Sally. So without a second thought, I uninstalled my Shanxun. Then I learned that it was the hardware- the broadband that was wrong. Several hours were wasted in installing and uninstalling the same software that had not at all changed.
It is OK to be wrong, the most important thing is to admit it and finish it as soon as possible. It seems like trite, but most of the time in the past i really feared to admit my fault so much that i would stuck to my wrong method for a longer time than it should, only to produce larger mistakes and make myself a bigger mess.
It is OK to fail, i just want you to fail quickly.
As long as i value the vision of truth higher than anything else, i will always do the right thing, instead of "what makes me feel good." and in most cases that is always poisonous. Keep my mind open and always be ready to see myself in the harshest condition as long as i can see the truth, and i will always be open to reason. That is the way to become a reasonable person.
The second time it went wrong, I knew it was because the broadband went wrong. Not knowing why, I recalled that recently I had kicked or touched the lower end with my foot for several times. With this vague memory and messed reason (is there reasoning at all?), I ventured to untag the lower end and intended to swap the two ends. Then something happened that was irreversible (isn’t that the thing you fear most all through your life, that you make a mistake with a consequence that is irreversible? Something lost and irretrievable, something damaged and can’t heal, some situation get in and never able )- the head in the lower end can’t be taken out, ever again.
I didn’t want to describe the pickle I was in any more. It would only add to my distress. No, not now.
I made the same mistake in these two things- I relied on some vague facts to make a rash judgment, without the process of reasoning, and then, acted upon it recklessly. Upon what? When I look back, I saw nothing. If it was called a thing, I would name it some emotion. Some irrational, rootless emotion.
What i really need is more experience.
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