凤儿

我：“有些人终生相对 却无话可说 有些人初次谋面 却仿佛有一辈子的话要说 ” 高二以后 伯劳东去燕西飞 而我自此一直活在生命的最表层 当初没有选择的那条路 没有看的书 浪费在迷惘里面的时光……一时语塞 找到你 像找到一个以前被我放弃的出口， 而它可能通向我真正像成为的自己 真的 不要因为我的这些情绪话的留言感到任何一丝的沉重 我真正想说的是 因为有你，I simply want to be a better person.

凤r回复我：幸r(是带上了浓重的鼻音的,就像高中时一样叫你) 劳伦斯说:人生最大的乐事是成为自己.而我觉得他的说法近乎诡辩(对于现代人)因为我们最大的问题是根本不知道自己,又怎么成为?我一直认为你是一个"good one"因为你比我们清楚自己．．． 第一次看到你的照片的时候觉得你憔悴了很多．．．要照顾好自己．如果找不到出口，就暂时这样认为好了：先学会生存，然后生活．


Three years. It is enough for even the most intimate friends to grow apart, but I find the spiritual relationship between the two of us has only strengthened at our “reunion”. I admit I was a little too sentimental. That was because I read the journals on her page, and found out she has been reading Ayn Rand and Lawrence, whose works still too high for me to reach. What had I been doing with my time? I asked myself. I ruined my life by wondering and keeping away with the books. Suddenly the road not taken, the sparkling speeches we exchanged back in high school came flooding back to me. The words I left on her message board was only the result of my restrained flooding emotion.


She sounds like a person who has been with me all the way since we met. Without context, she knew enough of me and my state of being to give a reply I need. She knows where these emotions come from, what I must have been up to in this place…sometimes I think she knows me better than I do, even though she’s thousands of miles away from me.

I wrote in a previous article that friend is the one whom by his or her great example, you can always draw inspiration from. She’s the one. And again, because of her, I simply want to be a better person.

She leads me to think seriously about myself:

Look around the habitable world, how few know their own good, or, knowing it, pursue it.