是熟稔，不是智力

What we can learn mostly just stay at the level of the very thing we do.

So taking the contest will not improve my English. What will work has already been done along the time proceeding it. It is a process. I take advantage of it. I am on the right way. If my reading does not help, it was because i hadn't read enough for it to help. People blessed with various experience will not threaten me now, because without actual learning, all they've got is just false confidence. They probably got more chance talking, that is what make them fluent. That is what i need to put most of energy and catch up with them. Fluency of talking crap!

If you can't finish the paper in due time, it does not mean you doesn't arrange your time properly or that you are slow, it means you don't understand, you don't get it. People don't arrange their time, they just finish it as it should. Just imagine what the paper would be like in the eye of a native speaker, and try to make yourself move toward his level.

So it comes down to very simple questions- if you know it, everything is right, you seldom make a mistake, you are cocksure of the answer, you finish it with lightening speed, time will be abundant throughout the paper. If you didn't know it, you misunderstand the question, can't judge the intention of the tester, you got stuck and held up by it, time elapse without you knowing it, you wished you could have time to go back and redo it but you know in reality this is not likely, time became more and more tight and you can't focus on the rest of the questions- everything went wrong. But the question is you come back blaming the ramifications instead of the very reason of it. So the more you know, the quicker and accurate your understanding, the better the turn out.

One day in senior high, i asked ZKP about the skills of doing science papers, what he said about it i already forgot. Now that i think about it, maybe it was because i did not get what i wanted to hear, or in other words, which is helpful to me. Today i happened to be in the same situation as he was two years ago, i suddenly understood- it is not about skills, it is all about whether you know it or not. Why he is good at doing science paper and getting amazing scores? Because they just know, just know how to do it, to solve the questions. As long as they know it, they can just go for it, from the beginning to the end, thus no problem with any kind of "strategy", "time arrangement" or whatsoever. When you are worrying whether you can finish the paper on time or making some stupid mistakes along the way, it means there is something wrong with how much on earth do you know. If you are truly good, you take the challenge and enjoy it. You feel fulfilled by solving these problems, you take delight in doing the paper. And ultimately, which i have not reached yet, eager to know the result, or still higher, can calculate your score to the very exact.