英雄不问出处

Trees are Known by their Fruits

I can’ t rely on anybody to figure my future out for me. sometimes I stop working as hard I am suppose to be simply because I think something is unfair. Now I know no one can do injustice to me except myself. I am the only one in responsibility for my future. If I fall short of my inner ambition, it was not for my family background, not for my misfortune, not for economic reasons, it was for my irresponsibility.

I would only chain myself to stationary if I ever consider everyone’s growth and fate in the perception of fairness. I lost the incentive to work hard with all my mights when I think of people who was born with a silver spoon in their mouth. What is the point in competing with them? They might have lived in foreign countries for several years before I knew ABC. No matter how hard I work, I might still be at most equal with them. I lost the incentive also when I come across the notion that I have a much better condition than people who have no access to the Internet at all. I felt guilty of being advanced to them simply for my external conditions. While that, is exactly what Ayn Rand described in Atlas Shrugged. What I need to do is to not compare to others whether in the means or in the ends, rather, simply to say, I can do it. And by that I mean doing superlatively. I am good, by the standard of my own- the standard of perfection. Perfection, not the confirmation of others, is my ultimate pursuit and infinite truth.