It is Who I am that Matters

陈丹青：文章的张力，是人格的张力；写作的维度，是人格的维度。

At the end of the day, it is who I am that matters, not what i do or say at that particular moment.

They judge me according to my performance, but it is not performances they are choosing from, it is persons that they are choosing from.

The nature of what Prof. W is leading us to do is to prepare some limited range of topics, piecing together ideas from all sides, and merging them into one single perfect and dead piece of 3-min...stuff. If that is what everyone do for winning, there is something profoundly wrong with the education as a whole.

So my idea is in essence opposed to W's. I insist in being a better known and informed person, so that when i am in the competition, i can show them who i am, and how qualified i am in ways that best express myself.

What he is trying to stuffing into our brains are cliche topics, all-round opinions which are dead to me, and a form that i does not agree with.

But whatever i say is weak and can not stand a single blow, since i am far from being a specimen of success. So i am first of all go ahead with myself, fight the war inside my skulls, break the old and corrupted part of thinking into a chaos, and establish a new order. Until i am successful enough i can speak with confidence, assurance, and a clear-mind that HE IS WRONG.